going to visit my nesting partner's family coincidentally on the birthday of my father. i only realized as i was asking my sister if i could sneak a visit with her.
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going to visit my nesting partner's family coincidentally on the birthday of my father. i only realized as i was asking my sister if i could sneak a visit with her.
my nesting partner's family has their own sets of issues, but they've always supported me in being trans - although i think they don't really get it, they can tell i am happy and that's enough. they've done really well with the name and pronouns too.
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terra luna tauri (she/her)replied to terra luna tauri (she/her) last edited by
it's been nearly two years since i went no contact with my parents. my sister, who has been lovely, tells me that they never speak about me or ask about me.
they never reached out to me... it was just done.
the thing i wonder about, though, is what my dad says to my grandpa with Alzheimer's. does he deadname me? almost certainly. who else does he talk to about me as if i am still his son?
he viewed my LinkedIn profile a few months ago... 14 months after we last spoke.
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terra luna tauri (she/her)replied to terra luna tauri (she/her) last edited by
and the thing that really gets me.
i moved a province away and started to find myself. moved further to hatch a new way of living. found purpose through transition and finding myself... and the more i became myself the less they understood me and the less they cared about me.
when i finally ended it, there was just nothing.
AND YET
those fuckers live rent free in my head.
in my anxiety. in my emptiness. in my brokenness.
i left them behind but they're still with me.
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Chris Alemany🇺🇦🇨🇦🇪🇸replied to terra luna tauri (she/her) last edited by
@terraboops you’re stronger than me. That’s ‘fer darn sure. I hope for you one day there might be mending in whatever way would be best for you but if that doesn’t happen I hope you’re eventually more ok than today. Take care. Glad you have supportive people to fall back on.
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terra luna tauri (she/her)replied to terra luna tauri (she/her) last edited by
i have been thinking about all this family stuff and my grandpa this week. thinking how i was told that i can't meet him; only as deadname. told how it was my fault if i didn't want that. wondering how my father must talk about me when i am not there, if at all...
and today i learned that my grandpa is dying. right now.
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Chris Alemany🇺🇦🇨🇦🇪🇸replied to terra luna tauri (she/her) last edited by
@terraboops oh no. I am so so sorry. Are you allowed to see your grandfather without your parents?