🧵 An excerpt from something I wrote in 2016 but never published
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🧵 An excerpt from something I wrote in 2016 but never published:
---Depression is not a choice.
No one in their right mind would wake up in the morning and willfully refuse to enjoy the multitude of events throughout the course of a single day that makes one smile and appreciate life. That first sip of coffee, an invigorating stretch, the loving licks from your goofy Dachshunds, crisp and fluffy homemade waffles drowning in real maple syrup, the invigorating steam from a hot shower...
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... the opening notes of your favorite Pearl Jam track — that one where you swear your own vocals can put Eddie Vedder’s to shame.
But those of us suffering from depression are NOT in our right minds. Because everything is wrong, and casually “snapping out of it” is as ludicrous a suggestion as spontaneously taking flight.
The worst part about depression is that it cripples you. Always mentally, and often physically...
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... Sure enough, I was always exhausted. And I had near-constant aches in my bad knee. At times it progressed to such a point that standing up from a sitting position frequently left me doubled over in pain. Sometimes walking around the block — or even walking around my house — was an exercise in frustration.
My doctor told me knee surgery was a realistic option, but one I should reserve as a last resort. I didn’t want to accept that I’d reached that point.
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Anyway, I penned about 3 chapters for a book tentatively called "Go Take A Hike: Defeating Depression On Nevada's Trails." It was sort of my nature origin story. The one where I explained my knee injury, and a confluence of events that started to save me from myself.
During the last few weeks, it feels like that story has picked up again. And I need to share it. Because I believe it will help people.
