@gallego How was the problem detected?

@paigerduty "Agency at work" feels to me like it should be on a hierarchy of needs. Thanks for underlining that.

I have never felt as much "out-of-my-control" as I do now, because of losing agency. And it happens in such indirect ways, I have a hard time pointing to reasons. But I definitely know how it feels, especially when I am told to "respect" someone's authority.

Honestly I don't know what the answer is for me. I've been doing Ops for 25 years - half my lifetime - and I am worn down. I am not sure I have found another solution BUT changing careers, but I also don't know what or where I could.

@paigerduty So what do you consider a "burnout break"?

For me, this is something like ... a year or more. I think I'm actually still in one.

Someone we know told me this week he can feel it when burnout is coming and he'll take a long weekend without telling anyone as a way to treat it.

Can people do that? My burnout feels so much more large and meta than a non-announced long weekend vacation can contain.

My work has a fixation with "working meetings".

These are video calls where multiple people get together for at least an hour, usually two+, and try and simulate an office environment where we're all "working together".

I hate it. It's ableist, among other things. And when I say that I can't do them, it is because I have to read CC to participate and that makes doing any work impossible. Not to mention people trying to "collaborate" by sharing their 400 column 11-pt font terminal window in a google meet and expect someone to be able to follow on a laptop screen that makes it even worse.

And then nobody learns how to collaborate remotely effectively through chat because nobody wants to make the effort or something.

By the way, this is also how incidents are run. It is so backward from the advances that everyone in the industry is doing and it drives me INSANE that I have to just watch that keep happening because of power dynamics and imposed hierarchy.