@natty @puppygirlhornypost2 yeah
It's absolutely been hell since then
Wish I'd known the absolute hellstorm I'd be getting myself in to
The past year and a half has been a constant assault on my wellbeing and still seeing people so resistant to the fact that this kind of abuse is extremely demoralizing
I wish I had proper words for it

@puppygirlhornypost2 @yassie_j yeah that aligns with a lot of how I felt about things during Eve. Stances people took and the fact that it was just streated as the weekly gossip by people and an excuse to be shitheads or weird about something with zero consideration to the fact that there are real victims and so many of them and they can see all of the bullshit you decide to bring in to this. The disposability of victims, simply as people to post evidence and testimony to add fuel to the fire, really hurt my faith in fedi and humanity. I don't really think there's an easy solution to this. It might even just be inherent to social groups once they hit a certain size. But even just having to use the term meta to stay in the discussion at all has always felt gross to me.

@puppygirlhornypost2 People should not have to do this but console one fucking victim of this and come back and tell me that this is all nothing

Staying off fedi but I can corroborate a lot of the stuff that's gone on
Ashten didn't take action against Hanna until I grilled her about it for a week or two constantly and I've recently learned that she knew about it at least a month before I brought it to her attention and she did nothing
She allowed Hanna to remove evidence
Did nothing about Caitlyn until being publicly called out for it
Ended up turning against the girls she claimed to be a godmother of after allowing them to be groomed, sometimes more than once
And specifically put slander against Allissa for criticizing her
Dragging Allissa back in to it this time when Allissa has not really been on Fedi
Ashten also has had people follow me to try and pry out information and preempt that I was going to make moves about her while I was trying to recover and stay out of things for my own mental health, to the point of having people eavesdrop on my accounts
The people she's stated she wants to protect are the same ones she's thrown under the bus, blamed, and abandoned when they got hurt by abusers she allowed and enabled, not to mention Ashten's own behavior
She also got DM records from victims after Hanna on the condition that she wrote/submitted a report about it and never did so
Her actions have not supported the values she reports to have
Talking to Ashten in private or public has not lead to any positive change and her response is denial and disinformation campaigns
I've seen a lot of the evidence and spoken to many of the victims myself over a number of months and there's a lot I cannot share but nothing is good
I regret any benefit of the doubt I've ever tried to give her
Whether things are malice or carelessness or incompetence does not matter at this point
The number of victims is countless and it's clear she is a toxic person to be around, even ignoring her role as administrator, and I personally cannot stand by trusting her or those close to her

I'm still going to try and stay on Fedi, but I wanted to set the record straight where I stand on this
Her response posts never actually debunk any of the evidence and are misdirection and strawman arguments that do not align with record or testimony
Please stop expecting victims to martyr themselves just to provide proof because you don't want to believe someone you are close to is abusive
It's disgusting
I am disgusted
And beyond burnt out and used up
I feel like I have often been a pawn in her game and trying to support her and give her the benefit of the doubt has only ever lead to things being turned against me when I try and stand up for people

@puppygirlhornypost2 I think that's what makes it difficult. Some people exhibit bad behaviors but it's because they're flawed and we make mistakes and we've been through shit.
I think I personally give people way too much benefit of the doubt.
It's easy to justify things in hindsight, but what's the line between "they have no friends because people are shitty because they're different" and they have no friends because they routinely abuse everyone around them" ?
The thing is you just cannot know at first
I've been hurt a lot
And maybe I'm better off being a little more cautious
But also I'd rather not just become closed off and suspicious of everyone or not give anyone any leeway at all because I think if I'm careful I'll never get hurt again

@puppygirlhornypost2 augh

What is the most haggered emoji on this instance

@puppygirlhornypost2 @saabria @Ezzy Yeah that also grows in to it's own thing even beyond that but I don't necessarily wanna speak for anyone especially when they've both spoken up for themselves in the past

@Ezzy @saabria @puppygirlhornypost2 Had* goddaughters
2 minors under her supervision were groomed and she was going to move them in because she was trying to be their godmother

@Ezzy @saabria @puppygirlhornypost2 I know way too much. Like way too much. Like did you know Ashten just let Hanna delete everything off of her phone and PC and never contacted CPS or anything despite it happening on her instance with her users and her goddaughters and her girlfriend
Like there's a legal responsibility there whether or not you think CPS is good or will actually do anything

@puppygirlhornypost2 @saabria @Ezzy Oh absolutely

@puppygirlhornypost2 @saabria @Ezzy Okay I thought it was Leah my bad nevermind

@puppygirlhornypost2 @Ezzy W-wait
The 18 year old??

@puppygirlhornypost2 Frankly this kind of thing always makes me very upset
And sometimes that upset can spill over
Especially when you don't know who genuinely doesn't know and who's "just asking questions" in bad faith

@puppygirlhornypost2 @natty not that it makes it better but I personally at least would like to not be involved even tangentially in the next thing if at all possible

@puppygirlhornypost2 @natty I better not have to dredge this up again next month

@natty yeah

I think it might be wise for me to log off. Digging this stuff back up is never easy for me. I want the record to be out there. But know that this always comes at a personal cost.
Any victim bringing this up will be putting themselves in a vulnerable position and experience great pain. Please remember this.

@puppygirlhornypost2 @0x4d6165 @natty sorry I didn't really have words

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